On my recent absence

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve last posted something here. Call it a case of writer’s fatigue (sometimes it seems like I’m telling different versions of the same story and I ask myself “What’s the point?”). I’ve shared my story, haven’t I? I’ve written about my own depression and anxiety, of mental health more broadly, of […]

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Alas, I am still depressed

Last month I was feeling great. My brother was getting married and there was a lot of excitement leading up to the wedding weekend. There were things to get organized, things to check off of lists, suits that needed to go to the tailor, people who needed picking up at the airport and on and […]

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Checking in with a potentially big change down the road

I’m in a bit of a Robert Frost situation right now- roads diverging and all that. I’m doing OK (in fact I’d say I’m doing better than OK) but I’m coming up to what seems like a pretty significant shift/shakeup, etc. in the next few weeks and it’s become harder to dedicate an appropriate amount […]

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Sometimes to get out of a hole you need a ladder

I’ve written before about not wanting to get involved in Alcoholics Anonymous because of the apparent reliance on a higher power or God or supernatural authority as part of their recovery program. But over the past few months I’ve realized that my recovery was missing something. Imagine being in a hole without a way out […]

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What I didn’t do today

Today I didn’t hurt myself, even though I was hurting. I didn’t have a drink, even though I opened the liquor cabinet, took out a bottle of Johnny Walker and thought about it. I didn’t get much work done because this has been perhaps my roughest stretch since the days right after my suicide attempt […]

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What’s “normal” depression and anxiety?

Confession: This has kind of been a down couple of days for me, despite the good news yesterday about my weight loss. The nadir was probably Saturday when I let what might be one of the last good summer days slip by while I fell into an HBO-Go wormhole and watched the entire first season […]

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All right! Under 200 lbs!

 So I weighed myself this morning and for the first time in a long time I’m under 200 lbs. How’d that happen? The answer is simple, but putting it into practice hasn’t always been so easy.

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Back from Alaska, aka, the view from the mountain

Well, I’m back. After the USA Today article came out my vacation was timed perfectly. It allowed me time to decompress, not think about my depression and anxiety and just enjoy the company of family and the beauty of Alaska. Haha, just kidding! Yeah, as if depression and anxiety let you take a vacation. This […]

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