The Road Ahead

So last month marked two years since my suicide attempt. Two years of avoiding alcohol, of taking medication, going to therapy and trying to remind myself that I’m good enough to keep sticking around. Some days are certainly easier than others and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t troubled or tempted or tested […]

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Do you know someone who may be depressed? Be their service light.

The other day the service light came on when I started my car, reminding me that I’m due for an oil change. I’ll be the first to admit that when it comes to this kind of thing my first instinct isn’t to run out to the instant oil change place or schedule a morning to […]

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Can marijuana help with anxiety issues? It helped mine. Let me explain…

So two weeks ago at my brother’s bachelor weekend there was, as one might expect, quite a bit of drinking going on. Cans of beer everywhere, rounds of Fireball shots- we even had wine drinkers and at least one person making Bloody Mary’s. It became pretty stressful for me- I’ve touched on the issues I’ve […]

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The problems I have patting myself on the back.

One of the most difficult things about recovery is being able to give myself credit for my achievements. It’s a recurring theme during my sessions with my therapist, I’ll share something positive that happened since our last meeting, or I’ll recount an example of my mindfulness in practice. She’ll ask “Can you give yourself credit […]

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Recovery is Progress, Progress is Recovery

This morning I went in to my therapists’ office in a state-of-mind I haven’t really found myself in before when meeting with her- content and without agenda. Typically when I go in I go in ready to talk about something that made me depressed or particularly anxious during the preceding week. We’ll talk through the […]

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How’d I do on my 2014 resolutions?

Before I post something about goals for the new year, I want to briefly look back on how I did in 2014. These resolutions weren’t all things I decided on January 1, 2014 and have been working on for the full 365 day cycle, but things that I’ve been working towards as part of my […]

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Dinosaurs and ghosts

I love dinosaurs and have ever since I can remember. Adults would get a kick out of three year old me answering “paleontologist” when they asked what I wanted to be when I grew up. My license plate currently reads “TREXRAWR.” My younger brothers and I wore out our VHS copy of “Jurassic Park.” I […]

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Breaking in boots

I bought a pair of boots for the fall/winter, something dressy enough that I could wear with slacks and an oxford shirt to work but also casual enough to throw on with jeans on a Saturday morning. I wanted a pair that I could have for years without falling apart and without going out of style […]

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A good session

I met with my therapist this morning and it was one of our most positive and productive sessions yet. We discussed the events of the wedding weekend and being on my own for the next few months. I know I said that I gave myself a “B,” but after our discussion I think I actually […]

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