I relapsed. Now what?

This might be the toughest post I’ve had to write yet. Well, I say had to… there’s no obligations that I’m subject to when it comes to this blog other than those I impose on myself. From the very beginning when I started writing it was because this is a way to share information on […]

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To the Groundhog

I wake up every day, right here, right in Punxsutawney, and it’s always February 2nd, and there’s nothing I can do about it. – Phil Connors (Bill Murray) Groundhog Day is one of my favorite movies, definitely in my top ten. It’s funny, it’s a bit philosophical, a bit sad and with a touch of […]

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Playing with fire

As most drinkers know, bourbon has a distinctive taste. It’s not like scotch or Canadian or Irish whiskey.  Even though I was never much of a bourbon drinker (I preferred the smokiness of scotch) I still remember how it tastes. Jim Beam was one of the only dark liquors my parents kept in the cabinet regularly […]

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Can marijuana help with anxiety issues? It helped mine. Let me explain…

So two weeks ago at my brother’s bachelor weekend there was, as one might expect, quite a bit of drinking going on. Cans of beer everywhere, rounds of Fireball shots- we even had wine drinkers and at least one person making Bloody Mary’s. It became pretty stressful for me- I’ve touched on the issues I’ve […]

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Book review: The Girl on the Train

Last summer I was taking the train from upstate New York into the city to see my brother and his fiance. Rolling through the Hudson Valley in August is a treat- the verdant hills and woods, the starkness of the cliffs against the blue sky. It’s one of the prettiest train rides there is, right […]

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The problems I have patting myself on the back.

One of the most difficult things about recovery is being able to give myself credit for my achievements. It’s a recurring theme during my sessions with my therapist, I’ll share something positive that happened since our last meeting, or I’ll recount an example of my mindfulness in practice. She’ll ask “Can you give yourself credit […]

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Don’t Ignore or Mock Seasonal Affective Disorder

It isn’t just a case of “cabin fever” or someone who’s fed up with the weather. Seasonal affective disorder is real and for people who are already struggling with depression, anxiety or other mental health challenges it can push them into a deeper depression, exacerbate their anxiety and in extreme cases cause an increase in […]

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Ten things to do to feel better when you’re depressed

I thought I’d share some of the things I do when I know my depression is creeping up on me. They won’t apply to everyone and everyone’s experience with depression is unique, but if there are two or three things on this list that you find work for you that’s great! I also want to […]

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Podcast Episode 2! Friendship and Warning Signs

It’s a new episode of the podcast! And my first interview- I sat down with a good friend of mine to talk about our friendship, how it’s been impacted by my mental health issues and have a great discussion about warning signs and how to deal with people close to you who may be suffering.

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Paul’s Letters: Podcast Episode 1

The inaugural episode of the podcast is a little heavy- I recount the circumstances that got me started with this blog in the first place, tell the story about what happened leading up to my suicide attempt, and what comes next.

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