The Road Ahead

So last month marked two years since my suicide attempt. Two years of avoiding alcohol, of taking medication, going to therapy and trying to remind myself that I’m good enough to keep sticking around. Some days are certainly easier than others and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t troubled or tempted or tested […]

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Why I had to get off of my most recent prescription

I’ve been very open about the fact that I take medication to help me manage my mental health, and, I’ve been open with the struggles that can come with that. Medication is an important part of treating mental illness, but it is not a panacea and there are legitimate criticisms to be made about the […]

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To the Groundhog

I wake up every day, right here, right in Punxsutawney, and it’s always February 2nd, and there’s nothing I can do about it. – Phil Connors (Bill Murray) Groundhog Day is one of my favorite movies, definitely in my top ten. It’s funny, it’s a bit philosophical, a bit sad and with a touch of […]

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What’s the right answer: Am I strong enough to stop/scale back therapy?

The New York Times has a series called Couch on psychotherapy and this morning’s article by Michael I. Bennett focused on the way both patients and their therapists handle winding down the frequency of treatment. It’s a good article and raises some good points. Most intriguing from my perspective was that sometimes both patient and therapist can come to […]

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It’s hard sometimes to HEY LOOK OVER THERE!

I have a problem with distractions. With losing focus and staying in control of tasks I’m working on. It can be a major problem, particularly when it comes to concentrating on work tasks, staying on top of assignments and being generally organized with what’s going on. This can result in missed or late assignments, sloppy […]

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Treatment ain’t cheap

The other day I received my benefit enrollment forms for 2016 and did some back of the napkin calculations on what my therapy & medication will cost next year (using this years appointment schedule & medication to plug in the gaps). It will cost me around $6,900.00 for health insurance, co-pays and medication. And that’s […]

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Getting in front of seasonal affective disorder

When I checked the forecast for this weekend I saw that tonight there could be some light snow tonight where I live, which is not unusual for mid-November in Upstate New York. But it’s a good reminder that for many people the coming weeks and months means a struggle with a particular type of depression- seasonal […]

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Looking back on my first mental health crisis

I don’t usually post trigger warnings on specific posts since I think it’s a fair expectation that a blog about mental health might contain information that might trigger a sensitivity to that topic, but since this post deals specifically with suicide, self-harm and a crisis, consider yourself specifically warned. I’ve wanted to write a longer-form […]

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Can I get back into mindfulness meditation?

I confess, this summer I’ve been slipping. I haven’t been following through on my mindfulness meditation practice and it’s starting to show. I find myself edgier, more irritable and anxious. My thoughts fly around my head and I have a hard time focusing and considering them. Once that happens it becomes very easy to fall […]

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