Geese on the lake

I needed to get out and do something active yesterday, because I was in danger of spending the weekend just sitting around the house, which is one of the easiest ways to set myself up for a recurrence of my depression. Getting outside and taking a long walk around the village is one of the best ways […]

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Alas, I am still depressed

Last month I was feeling great. My brother was getting married and there was a lot of excitement leading up to the wedding weekend. There were things to get organized, things to check off of lists, suits that needed to go to the tailor, people who needed picking up at the airport and on and […]

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Feel the love, embrace the call

I’m only two weeks in at the new job and it’s already one of those things you feel in your gut is the right thing. Last Tuesday night we had a screening of the short documentary film “Duk County: Peace is in Sight” and a Q&A with John Dau at the ArtRage Gallery in Syracuse […]

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A little piece of heaven

I’m lucky enough to live in Skaneateles, New York, home of the eponymous lake that is among the cleanest in the US. It’s also one of the most beautiful (in my opinion) bodies of water I’ve come across. There are few things I enjoy more than getting out on the water, especially in my kayak. […]

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Why We Find It Hard to Meditate

From Mindful.org: Why We Find It Hard to Meditate | Mindful. What is it about something as simple as sitting still and watching our breath that evokes panic, fear, and even hostility? No matter how many reports there are proving the mental, emotional, and physical value of being quiet, there seems to be an even greater […]

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Night (And Days) Of the Living Detached

You, loyal reader, may have noticed a bit of a decrease in the output here at Paul’s Letters. I wish I could say that I have been out curing Ebola, taking the fight to ISIS, etc. but the truth is, the past few days I’ve just sort of come unmoored. It’s a bit of a […]

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Blogging on World Mental Health Day, looking back and looking forward.

When I first started this blog I wrote that one of the reasons that I wanted to be open about my depression, anxiety and alcoholism was to share my experience in a way that others who may be facing similar struggles may be able to relate to, learn from and get help for themselves. In […]

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What’s “normal” depression and anxiety?

Confession: This has kind of been a down couple of days for me, despite the good news yesterday about my weight loss. The nadir was probably Saturday when I let what might be one of the last good summer days slip by while I fell into an HBO-Go wormhole and watched the entire first season […]

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Changes in latitudes, aka, Laughing at myself

“If we couldn’t laugh, we would all go insane” is one of my favorite lyrics, from Jimmy Buffett’s “Changes in Latitudes, Changes in Attitudes” because it’s true (though obviously when writing about mental health throwing around words like insane takes a certain amount of detachment). 

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